Our 2nd March 5th Surprise!

I haven't felt like blogging for awhile and this is the reason why...

On the morning of March 5th 2007, we received the wonderful news that we had a daughter waiting for us in China. On the morning of March 5th 2008, we discovered that we had a child waiting for us in the womb. The first had been anticipated for 2 years, the second was an absolute surprise.
The video above was just taken today after we went for an ultrasound yesterday and our doctor thought she saw twins! We had to get a different ultrasound today to get a better picture so we could find out for sure. There is thankfully only one. Twins would have been cool, but a lot more difficult. This baby is only 9 weeks old, but is already making life very difficult for its mama! I have been sick for three weeks. I'm starting to feel a little better, but that's not saying much. Jade has been such a sweet little girl! We are also in the middle of a major remodel down stairs. Our kitchen, family room, and mud room are completely gutted. We are basically living upstairs. Jade is not able to run around as much and I definitely have been too sick to take her outside although the wonderful Ohio spring rains have been pretty consistent for the past several weeks anyway. Anyway, I guess it's a good time to not have a kitchen because I couldn't handle cooking right now anyway. Matt, of course, has been the best husband ever! He works hard all day, comes home and gets some kind of food together for dinner, plays with Jade and puts her to bed. And does some laundry too! How blessed am I! Anyway, my due date is October 27th. I guess there is no other info about this right now.
Here is a cute video of Jade from a couple of months ago. She really likes all of her musical instruments! She has to carry her breath mints so she has fresh breath blowing into her harmonica!

My blogger works again!

Before the haircut...

during the haircut...

after the haircut!

Sitting pretty!

Picture update

Jade wanted to share her chewed up carrot and celery. I hated to turn down that face, but you should have seen the celery!

This is Jade showing me what a rabbit does. She is so funny when she does it! She tries to wiggle her nose up and down, but she ends up blinking her eyes too.

I have such a wonderful husband. At the beginning of this month I got really sick one weekend and Matt took care of Jade the whole time so I could rest. He took her out that Saturday to play in the snow while I napped. When I woke up later they were back inside and Matt told me to go to the window. This is what they made for me. He is always doing stuff like this. He wrote me a note last week using the sweetheart candy with little phrases on them. He cut out a red construction paper heart and then wrote the message with pen and candy. I came down for breakfast to this beautiful gesture of love from the most amazing man in the world! And he says he's not creative!

Life in Death

We just attended a funeral today. It was for a man in our church. I did not know him well, but what I have seen and known of him and his family made me want to go. He was in his 90's. He'd lived a life of exemplary faith in Christ and had passed quite a legacy to not only his immediate family, but to our church family as well. I've been struggling lately...just with life I guess. I tell Matt that it is just my seasonal depression kicking in.(Ha! Ha!) I really do not like winter at all, but I'm just making excuses for my frustration. Anyway, I was saddened at this funeral and yet encouraged. Isn't that the neat thing about the death of a true believer. Even in their death, God uses them. Probably for many things. For me it reminded me of what life is really about, which I know in my head all the time, but have a hard time living sometimes. I can be so ungrateful. I seem to struggle with just being satisfied in Christ. I'm so discontent. I guess that's been the big thing lately. I've wanted a child for so long and now I have this wonderful little girl and I'm struggling. I sometimes long for the days when Matt and I were alone. I miss him so much. I also feel like a failure most days. I struggle to find time to get all the things done that need to get done. When I do get them done I feel like I failed Jade because I probably didn't play with her enough or maybe I was less patient with her. Did she go to bed knowing that her mama loves her or is she sad and lonely. I've resolved after today to change some things that I need to, and yet I'm afraid that that is no different than other days that I've read my Bible and said this day will be different. I think some of this rambling is because it was an emotional day and it is very late. But I do wish I could live my life with the kind of faith and trust in God that this man did. It's easy for someone to do something spectacular at the end of their life that people remember, but I want to live the kind of life that this man did. But that is harder because it was every single day choosing to set aside self and instead make every choice to bring glory to God. I feel exhausted just thinking about it! I know whom I have believed, but am I persuaded that He is able to keep that which I've committed unto Him against that Day?